Today was one of those brain foggy, irritable sort of days. Everyone seemed off and a bit cranky. I have often pondered if they’re all just feeding off of my energy, or maybe we’re all feeding off of each others. I’ll take ownership for that I guess. It wasn’t the best day. There were a few sweet moments though.
We got some news today about our home project that caused a bit of worry. I knew right away I needed to pray. When I found a break in the homeschool day, I did one of my favorite things. I found a quiet place, breathed deep ,and gave that time to Jesus, inviting him to speak to me truth about the situation. He showed me several pictures. The main theme was that the situation was already done. Since He exists outside of time, He knows our future. He knows our past and present and every concern that’s on our hearts. I kept opening my hands, spread wide so that he could take the situation or change it or do what He will with it. I have learned that nothing outside of His will is worth the doing or forcing or nudging. It has been crucial in my life to to give it back. He showed me this scenario in my hand and he covered it with a clear dome. When I asked Him what the dome meant I felt like He was telling me it was his protection and favor over this project. I felt so unworthy of that favor, so I asked Him why and I was reminded ever so gently, that it’s not about me. My feelings of worth or unworthiness are not even a part of this scenario. It’s all about Him and His glory to be revealed, as it already has been over and over and over through this process of Finding Home. I can’t express how much peace He gave me in that moment, seeing so clearly His sovereignty and path where miracle after miracle has come to fruition over the last nine months.
I am grateful for His goodness and love and glory that is being revealed day by day. Each morning I wake up anticipating miracles, all the pieces being revealed, coming together. Knowing that God loves us so much, how can we live each day with any other perspective. Regardless of what happens, it’s all for His glory. Thank you Jesus, it’s not about me or my life or plans. Hallelujah!